heartfelt and unsure

it's been a hard week for me. long nights of no sleep, tossing, turning and realizing the outcome of decisions that had to be made were clearly uncertain. i've had to walk away from two very important loves in my life. work, and dance. the details aren't necessary and it's just not something i can articulate anyway. i am attempting to keep strong and believing that both are things that aren't necessarily over. it's very difficult though. i feel like i have been beaten by a sledge hammer.